Monday, February 8, 2016

The Journey Continues...

Long time no chat!  I am definitely still on the path to finding Mis, but I felt the need to go underground for awhile to kind of just be and figure out what should come next. 

If you have been reading my journey so far, you know that  sent some HUGE whammies my way.  Really, 2013-2015 were filled with so many monumental highs and epic lows that I needed to get off the roller coaster for a bit.  It was what inspired this journey in the first place.  BTW, I HATE roller coasters, so having a minute to step off the ride and vomit was just what I needed.

Okay, so that was not a pretty picture, but neither was the place I was in.  We have all been there.  Think of a time when your world was falling apart, yet you somehow managed to go to work (and rock it), keep your direct family together, continue relationships with friends and other family members (and rock it), and yet, your daily life could not have been more stressful, confusing, or painful.

I am not going to go into the whole women suffering in silence debate because that was not what it was about for me.  It was about reaching my personal and career goals, keeping my family together and healthy, and just waiting for the suck to take a five minute break so we could get our lives back on track or (the audacity) to an even better place than before. 

I am here to say we have reached the other side!!!!  It was not without a total implosion.  One that I certainly thought we were not going to come back from.  But, not only is my family in the best place it has been in, well maybe ever, but I have found new layers of myself that I was not sure existed. 

This journey continues to shock and amaze me.  It is hard.  I cannot tie it to one thing.  It is about wellness and mindfulness, it is about knowing myself and what I need much better, it is about making my best life.  It is about owning my feelings and actually feeling them (this is the part that makes me want to quit every. single. day.)  But, I want to do it.  I want to be accountable for it.  I want you to know that you can do it to.  And if we are being honest here, it is always more fun when you have a support network and you know you are not alone.  So, if you are ready, Iet's take this journey to Finding Mis and Finding (YOU!!!!) together.