Last Things First

  I am buying a house!  Well, maybe.  You see, this was a project for the last quarter of Fit for 40.  But as life has shown me so many times over the last 3 years-I do not get to decide the right time for things.  It so happened that my husband and I decided we needed to take a step forward and this was the...

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Fit for Forty and Other Updates

Hi Everyone,      If you are just tuning in, let me give you a quick overview of this blog.  After reading Playing Big by Tara Mohr last year, I was inspired to tackle some of the personal items that have been dogging my to do list for years (some even decades).  Meanwhile, life had other plans.      Without getting into it in this post, 2015 was...

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The Journey Continues...

Long time no chat!  I am definitely still on the path to finding Mis, but I felt the need to go underground for awhile to kind of just be and figure out what should come next.  If you have been reading my journey so far, you know that  sent some HUGE whammies my way.  Really, 2013-2015 were filled with so many monumental highs and epic lows that I needed to get off the roller...

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Compassion..For Myself

Compassion is easy to have for others.  My heart hurts every time I see anyone else struggling.  Somehow though, I cannot find it in myself to show the same compassion for my struggles.  I am not saying that I should be throwing a pity party or that my woes are any worse than yours.  It is just that I never cut myself any slack...

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I AM SO ANGRY... and I LOVE it!!!

I started seeing a therapist in June and I have made more progress in two months trying to process everything of the last two years, deal with my own baggage, and just establish a solid foundation of mental health than I have in the 15+ years I have been trying to do it on my own. I had my first major breakthrough late last month. My therapist...

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Livin' La Vida Solo!!!

One of the great things about being separated after being married for more than a decade is that I actually have time to think!  Like, really think.  About what I want in life, what I like and dislike, what makes me happy, what needs to change if we are going to make this marriage work, and whether or not that is even possible. You might find this odd, especially since we do not have children...

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Be Careful What You WIsh For

When I said I wanted to Find Mis this year, I had no idea what I was getting myself into.  And as much as the results hurt, and the changes are hard, I am not sorry I wished for it! My vision board would tell you that this year I wanted to get super healthy, read and write more-as both a creative outlet and the next step in my career, take...

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Broken

I am writing this post looking back on one of the worst weeks of my life.  A week where my husband ended up strapped down in the back of an ambulance and surrounded by cop cars and where a few days later I had to drive him to be committed to a mental hospital. I am looking back on a week that involved more tears than I have cried in the past 25 years combined.  This is no exaggeration...

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Food for Thought

Sometimes you are supposed to FINALLY get a weekend of alone time in your house-the first in 15 years mind you- and it turns into a weekend where you not only deprived of your alone time, but also presented with some crazy bullshit that you did not see coming. Sometimes life forces you out of your comfort zone and pushes you to consider what would happen if your whole life changed tomorrow. ...

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Checking In

Another month has gone by and I have been super quiet on the blog.  It is not because I am not doing the work.  In fact, I have had quite a few epiphanies.  I have been finding it really hard to write about.  This year has taken a few unexpected personal turns.  In some ways, these turns have helped to move me forward in some major ways.  In others, they have forced...

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Self Reflection

I am taking time for me.  Time to breathe, time to relax, time to figure out who I want to be and where I want to go from here.  It is impossible to move ahead when you don’t know where you want to go.  I am not looking to move for movement’s sake or just hoping luck will push me in the right direction.  I want to consciously...

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What Does Playing Big Mean to Me?

It seems like a simple question.  What does playing big mean to me?  I already play fairly big in my career.  I know what I can do and where my goals need to be to play bigger.  But, honestly, playing big in my career is the least of my concerns right now.  What I really want to do is play big in my personal life. ...

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The Power of a Book, Part 2

I can tell you the exact moment I found my calling. I was in elementary school and I was at the house of a family friend.  She was doing a storytime for a group of children in our circle and she was reading Joseph and His Coat of Many Colors (based on the biblical story and later the inspiration for the Andrew Lloyd Weber musical.)  Jacob...

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Getting Back on Track

I have not been in a great place these last few weeks.  Snapping 3 muscles in my calf this week (surprisingly, muscles actually snap like an elastic when tearing) was actually a blessing in disguise because it gave me some time to rest and realize how far off track I am from the wonderful place I started this year. Torn muscles aside, the...

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The Power of a Book, Part 1

Vacation is going well!  I have been quite busy, but much of my days have been spent with friends, reading, and writing, so I am in a happy place!  As I was thinking about what to write about, it occurred to me that I wanted to talk about books, but felt bad that I relate most of my posts back to what I am reading at the moment. ...

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Vacation!

I am on vacation this week!  I cannot describe quite how much I have been looking forward to this week.  Work has been very trying lately and I really have been wanting to focus more on this endeavor.  A staycation is just what I need to reorganize and regroup. A February vacation has the dual win of not having to drive 45 minutes...

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You Win Some and You Lose Some on the Path to Enlightenment

So, I have been quiet about my quest for finding myself for a couple of weeks now.  I am happy to report that I have not fallen off the wagon.  My new year's resolution is still going strong.  However, my most recent exercise in self-exploration is not. Ilene Segalove's 40 Day's and 40 Night: Taking Time Out for Self-Discovery: A...

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I Am Queen of the Island of Misfit Toys

As of yesterday, it is official!  I am the queen of the island of misfit toys.  For those of you that are not familiar with this particular place, it is the land Rudolph the Red Nosed Reindeer visits when he runs away from the North Pole in the famous Rankin-Bass Christmas Special.  (Their adorable first meeting can be seen here.)...

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Time to Move or Time to Stay? Letting My Year Guide Me

A couple of professional opportunities have come my way recently and my instinct was to let them pass.  However, my husband is not so thrilled about it.  He is concerned because 1.) It is completely out of character; and 2.) I have worked so hard to get where I am, why quit now?  He feels like I should be chomping at the bit to...

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Tools for Success

It is no secret that books have played a major role in my life.  I will talk more about that in time, but today I would like to share a few titles that have played a major role at different turning points in my life.  I have carried them close with me and continue to use them whenever I find myself looking for what my next step forward...

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